Depression is a mixture of anger and sorrow towards yourself and those around you. You feel lonely in the midst of people as solitude becomes your worst fear and your only solace at the same time. You feel drowning in your own sadness and crippled by your own destruction, as if nature is telling you there's something wrong and that you have to take action. Outside help may be, at best, of minimal benefit, because no one can feel exactly the way you do. You are the patient and the doctor. You're on your own.